For my New Year's resolution, I am only focusing on what I do want in my life. Not what I don't. I am doing my best to say positive affrimations all day and not to say "eewww" every time I see a full body shot of myself in pictures or store windows.
I've been doing pretty good. I'm doing better at what I put in my mouth wether it be food or drink and I've been exersizing.
All that serenity came to a screeching hault when I recieved a text from my sister.
She's getting married this Aug.
Guess who's a bridesmaid?
The dress I get to wear is pretty, but still.
All those negative thoughts came crashing through on how I'll never shed this excess weight and I'll look like a blob up there at the altar.
It didn't bother me too much at my brother's wedding. I wasn't in the wedding party and on display.
Well, I take that back, there are a few side view pictures of me that make me cringe.
Back to the mental drawing board.
OOOOOOOOmmmmmmmmmmmmm
OOOOmmmmmmmmmmm
OOOOOOOOOOmmmmmmmmmm
