Tomorrow we are going up to the Ren. fair. I'm a bit nervous because of FM. I know he's either going to show up drunk to our house (he's meeting us here with the kids at 9am) or he's going to try and start drinking once we get there.
I know I can't control him and his actions, I can only control how I react to him. It is hard to stay calm and rational when all you can think of is the pain he's caused. All the money thrown down the drain, the stress, the filth he keeps those kids living in and the fact that when he finally DOES kill him self with the bottle; the cunt will end up with the kids. The only reason he stayed with the Cunt for so long is because she would enable him. He just had to show up with the paycheck and she took care of everything. Fuck, he didn't even know how to write a check when she fianlly threw him out. Hell, he'd still be with her now! She used to beat the shit out of him too. He regualrly had black eyes and scratches on his face.
And you know what else really pisses me off? That Cunt used abortion as a form of birth control and I can think of several women who are trying their damndest to get pregnant even once.
The Cunt was a horrible mother too. Ugh, enough ranting about those fucking morons.
See? This is what they do to me. Get me all riled up because they are too fucking inconsiderate to step up to the plate and be parents and responsible adults.