A glass of wine, a vicodin. Is there any other way to get ready for work? hmmmmm.......... I really don't feel like going in, but the look of joy on puddn's face as he had fun at the pumpkin patch will make it worth while. Anything to make him happy. He does not ask for much, his pleasures are simple. Thank Goddess he likes to be hugged & snuggled. I don't know what I would do if he had the type of Autism that did not like touch. Wish I was hanging out with my "homies" tonight, but that won't be happening any more. I can't just pretend nothing happened. How long will it be before the next big issue? I feel I can learn on my own. I'm going to have to. I have all the basics, now I have to put them to use. Now my next big question. When do I go riding again? I'm starting to feel better, I'm dyeing to go riding. Maybe tomorrow. Mr. S is not happy that I will continue to ride horses. Too bad. I'm not EVER giving up myself for him ever again. It just sucks it took this long to heal. Well when you fall off (or been bucked off in my case) you have to get back on. Face the fear. Am I afraid? A bit. I will never run and hide from anything again. I've come too far and grown as a person. I've learned my lessons (like don't ride bareback any more you old fart!). Well I guess I should finish folding my 2 weeks worth of clean clothes. I have no fucking clue as to where to put them. Lili has given me so much, I've taken over Mr. S's side of the closet and now I'm in puddn's!